Amityville...

Have u ever wondered how come when someone's so angry, they can be the meanest mofos in the world. And they can freakin say anything they want to and expect u to be ok in a few days. I got it from both my parents, and i realised after almost 21 years of living, i'm not their son. Jus bcos of money. I'm not their son bcos one is so fuckin selfish and only thinks bout himself, and the other one only thinks bout how much she works for the freakin family. Jeez! Why should i bloody care bout ur shit, cos u started all tis shit, and i'm not gonna freakin clean it up. From now on, the two of them can do watever they like, cos i'm not their freakin son no more rite? And if my mom is gonna start her women's right thingy, go to hell wif tat and i hope she succeeds in sendin all men to jail.

I pity my siblings. I love them so much. I jus dont want them to go thru wat i went thru when i was young like them. I wanna get a new place to stay and start living on my own. But then i'll be like my freakin dad who is so irresponsible cos i'll be leaving behind my siblings to a crazy witch who starts cussing everytime she's broke. I have responsiblities at home, and i want to be a responsible person. I'm living in Amityville and its freakin scary ok.

Oh well, i wrote a new song. I like it. Its call 'The Same Women Again'. Its bout a guy who keeps fallin in love wif the same women who's gonna leave him in the end. Its like a reggae-hop music. And i must say tis, its one of the best songs i ever wrote. Music produced by Ali and Zaheed btw. Its a crazy track. Anyone interested in listenin to it, do come down and watch me and my new band's performance on 18th May and also 21st May. More details will be up soon.

I realised tat whenever i'm depress or angry, i get more ideas and i write more songs. But it would either turn out to be a sad song or dissin song. Happy thoughts! Happy thoughts! No, i dont wanna fly, i jus wanna write happy songs. Jeez!

Yesterday i went out wif the guys. Ali, Fir, Zaheed and Yasser. I feel out of place at first cos i dont really know like some people they were talkin about. Dont u freakin hate tat? Niwae it was fun, wif the sheesha, 2 hour omelette supper and also DVD movie. Zaheed fast forward everytime there is like scene of sexuality. I tot tat was pretty childish. Niwae we watched Jerry Maguire, its like my 7th time watchin it btw, and i cried again. Crying it not childish ok. It means, u do have a heart. Hehehe!

Oh yah, i got to see Yantee when i was walkin beside Fox. Weeeeee! And i got to meet Raudha at Zaheed's place! Weeeeee! If u noe wat i mean??!