The one wif the unapproved leave...

So i was late for work today, overslept, if u noe wat i mean. I looked at my phone and it was freakin off lah. I ran as fast as i could to the store and no one was there. Phew! Yeah, phew my ass. There were a few missed call at work's phone and it was the boss. I was in a bloody hot soup naked ok. So later my supervisor came and i straight away admit to her tat i was late. She jus said not to it again. Phew!

Few hours later she got a fax tat her leave was not approved. And all of the sudden she turned into my mother. She was in a very very bad mood. Then she started cursing Video Ezy like Tupac dissin Biggie, and it was scary ok. Customers even got scared. I freaked out. Jeez! Maybe she was having her period too. Wait, do butch get period??

I watched Musika Extravaganza. Phunkywan was wif Triple Noize. I dont know wat to say. I'm shocked. Niwae Taufik is so different. He doesnt do the Usher moves no more. I miss those moments. But Siti is still the best lah... I jus love her voice and the way she controls it. PCK totally burned the whole comedy skit. And how come he could make fun of the merlion but Rama cant. TV somemore. The Malaysian Idol was very good. Dayang *sumthin* was fabulous too. There was only one irritating singer, i dont remember her name. She was basically tryin so hard to be Beyonce's ass. U're not Beyonce k. Get a life k. Infact, get two...

I jus got a bad new from Aza the Marilyns jus now. He told me tat on the 18th May performance at Hideout, Seven Sundays will be performin there too. Ok, Seven Sundays are very good, but after the Eid compilation launch i dont really like them. When i was performin tat nite, a member from their band all drunk and shit was a rude standin infront of the stage cussing. I was damn pissed tat nite. Bless and Switch was there wif me. It was the worst gig of all time. So the tension is like crazy now. I have to either do an amazing performance wif my band or like Aza said, if i dont want to perform, its ok, i can always perform later later.

The only problem wif the band i'm having rite now is like Zaheed is a lil slow (or too fast) on the bass. And we still have no concept or should i say style of music. I wanted tis to be like a side project, but it seems more like a band thingy now. Its been great and easy workin alone. But i do want to give Ali a chance to perform.

To a special friend of mine; I really appreciate ur help alot. Seriously, i'm not ok at home. But hey, i wanna be okay, if u noe wat i mean. Things are pretty hard for me rite now, but i wont give up and break down. Tat i promise u. I do want to start living on my own but there are so many things i have to settle first. I love my siblings alot. I hope u understand. I will meet up wif ur friends next week. I will be around more often from now on so tat u wont have to ask silly questions to urself anymore. I always keep thinkin bout people who dont give a shit bout me rite? I'm sorry. I'm stupid. U've always been there when i needed help, and i always put u aside when i'm happy. Sorry for not being a good friend. Really sorry.

To another special friend, all i can say is go home. Runnin from problems are not gonna solve ur problems. Take watever job u can get for the time being. I'm sorry i cant help u much wif cash, but if u need a place to chill, u can always come down my place. Or we can chill at Ali's and jam. Pls, dont feelin 'lonely'... It will make matters worse.

To another special friend... Jeez!

My head is aching again and its like worst tis time. I hate it. I wish i could do sumthin bout it. Sometimes i keep thinkin bout crazy things tat could happen to me. And everytime i think bout it, the fear of not waking up to see all the people i love, starts playin in my mind. I hate tat feelin. I fuckin hate tat feelin.

I gonna have a very long day at work tmr. And its freakin Sunday. Sundays are suppose to be freakin family day dammit!