The one who has to be strong...

I had a crazy day last Saturday, but tiring tho. I didnt know tat walking from Bugis to Esplanade was so tiring. I had a performance on Saturday, wif The Marilyns @ Esplanade. I finished work at 3 pm, and i had to rush to the gig. So Ali came to the rescue wif his 'suria perkasa hitam' and i'm tellin u, he's a crazy rider at times. Niwae we reached the place at 3.45pm, and The Marilyns were already startin for soundcheck. We did our set without Lan, cos he was late. But it was fun. I hope The Funkus would get to perform again soon.


Some pictures from the gig...

After the show, i persuaded Ali and Lan to watch Star Wars Episode III. So we went to PS to get lovers seats. Hehehe... But before the movie, we went to Al-Majlis to smoke some sheesha ofcourse. I love the service there actually. Its like i'm being pampered. Ali, Lan and me had a serious talk bout the band. I'm actually good at serious talks. Hehehe... But there was one part, we played wif my digicam and snapped funny faces. I dont know why but i laughed out loud like mad. Tat was fun, we should do tat again. I dont know why, but i have a feelin tat tis band is really gonna happen. Insyallah. Niwae after tat, we headed to PS to watch the saga i've been wantin to watch.


The funny faces we made...

To my surprise, Ali and Lan was very impressed wif the movie. Come on, its Star Wars k. George Lucas is a genius. The movie was so incredibly great. I love it from start till the end. Nough said. Niwae after the movie, Ali and Lan keep asking questions bout wat happened next in episode 4, 5 and 6. Luckily, i did a lil homework at home, so i didnt have much trouble answerin them. Excellent!

Niwae i got my PS2 back thanks to my mother. So i think i wont be gettin X-Box so soon. I mean, most of the games are almost the same. But i really want a PSP. Its so bloody cool k. But i think wat i need most is a mic, so tat i can start recordin my tracks. I really need to put out sumthin soon. Its been too long.

I met Dian, Lan and Su. Su is Dian's friends and she's so cool k. She's like Imran alil bit, cos she knows alot and very humble. I had fun jus talking to the three of them. We should do tat more often.

These past few days have been crazy for me. But i've learned alot. I always keep asking myself questions; How come the good things you do in life people dont see, but the bad things, they exaggerate it? How come when u're watchin a romantic movie, u think its sweet, but when someone do it in real life, u call it drama? How come its too late for me? How come suddenly, 'if u love her, let her go..'? I got all the answers for these questions plus some others, after a few days. I know wat i have to do now.

I've said wat i really feel bout her. I've told her wat i want. But in life i've realised i can never get all the things tat i want. Some i do, some i dont. Tats why God is fair. And He also created retribution. I believe tat every bad thing tat happens to me are my retributions. A punishment for me so i remember who i am still. Mohamed Fazli. Everything in life is a test, we give up we fail. We learn and apply from our mistakes, we pass. Imran told me, we affect the surroundin and the surroundin affect us. I'm really broken hearted, but if i be sad all the time, my surroundins are goin to change. 'Knowing my conditions are the reasons i must change'. I'll never forget tis line.

I'm not changin my plans, but i am goin to change myself. I need to be more patient. I need to have more faith in myself. I need to be strong. I should give a fuckless bout wat people said bout me. I'm sick and tired of losing my faith everytime these things happen. First my dad, now its her. I'm not gonna be angry at them. I'm at fault too. I admit my mistakes.

Thank you Lan, Ali and Imran, for endurin wif my crapness these past few days.

Tis is the same story, but a different chapter for me. Shit, come to think bout it, i'm single now. Scwhing!!!