I suddenly like black...

Its been weeks since i left Fir Iqbal. I've became jobless since tat. All i do is sit at home and watch dvd, eat junk food, or meet up wif the old skools. Actually, i've had too much of them in the past few weeks. But its not bad at all. I love them alot.

I went out last Saturday to meet Imran after a long time, and i was hoping to meet some of the Asone too. But only Fai was there, and he was totally upset cos he broke up wif his galfren. Niwae i felt awkward alil bit meeting my hiphop frens. I dont know why. Its like i have nothin new to tell them or maybe they totally forgot bout me cos i've been mising in action for quite some time. Shafii spoiled my fuckin day actually. But i jus wanna forget bout it. Its my fault. I should have listen to Imran. I should have perform at Esplanade. And i shouldnt have trusted Fir's word.

So now its like a mess i have to clean up. A few people suggested tat i should change my stage name. But to wat? Some suggested tat i should perform alot now. But how and for wat? Some even said tat i should start organizing my own gigs. I'm not at tat level yet. Maybe someday. I jus wanna be a normal performer from now on. Jus wanna learn more bout producing music. Jus wanna make good music. Tats all.

I met Yantee on Monday. She's still sweet. Oh, i had to be an extra for her sister's production thingy. I was fun, but tiring. On the same day too, i had to record a radio ad for tis Sunday's gig. So the ad is now on air on Perfect 10 and Ria, 5pm to 8pm, till tomorrow. And on Monday itself, i realised tat whenever i pronounce words tat has 's' in them, i would have alot of 's'. For example, if its 'Superman', i would sound like 'Ssssuperman'. Get it?

I got a job already, and the place and pay is good. I'm goin to start work next Tuesday. I cant wait to start. I've got bills to pay btw. Its all overdue. My phone is goin to be terminated soon. I hate it. Cant they wait for awhile.

I cant stop thinkin bout her. She's everywhere. I wish she knew how much i love her. :(

ps: Black is my new fav colour!