The one who sat at the rooftop...

I sat down at the rooftop thinkin bout u... Only u. I know wat i want, but i have no idea wat i should do bout u. I have no idea wats install for the two of us. I want to meet u, but time and work dont seem to make it good for us. I miss u so much today. So much tat i'm crying rite now while writing tis post. There are some gals in my life tat makes me feel happy, and i look at them and say, "God, i wish i could be wif u.." or "I wish she could be like u..". But i realise tat i love u for who u are, and nothin could change tat. Those times we cried on the phone talkin bout our heartbreaks together to the time we last talked... I love u so much. And things have been different without u. I wanna make us work, but i have no idea wat should i do first. I have everything tat i want now. I have a job, good pay atleast. I have friends, whom i love so much. Friends who watch dvds wif me, friends who spent their entire night wif me, friends who write songs wif me. My family is perfectly ok, eventhough the normal mom and dad things are still happenin. Music has been ok, ideas are coming and things are slowly happennin. All i'm missing in my life is u. I mean u are still in contact wif me, but i want u to be wif me every single moment. Even when i'm sittin at the rooftop. Whenever i close my eyes, i see u, Sab. I love u so much. I'm lost for words to describe how much i love u. I love u always, and tats final... :')

A friend of mine confess bout her secret. I was so shock to hear bout it, tat i kept quiet the almost the whole time she sat beside me. But i wanna thank her for tellin me, cos she makes me feel like someone special. Thank you. I know how u feel but "hey, u're safe mann!"... hehe... Dont worry i dont hate u. U're one of the coolest person in my life still.

Imran came over to my workplace today. Happy k. And u know everytime he meets me, we could brainstorm a whole lotta songs k. And today he freestyled/sang tis song to me, and it was so beautiful...

I am lost for words, tats nothin tat could change me
Everything i say, seems so wrong
I am lost for thoughts, cos everything i say is gone
Watever i hold on to, seems to disappear

U can hold me here, i cannot stay tat long
I know where i should go, i know where i belong
If its so hard to see, why u can be wif me
All the stars and the sky, agrees...

I am lost for words, its all beyond me
All of my fantasy, have gone to the floor
Why do i ask for more, why do i bother
Why do i yearn, wats never shown

I wish u guys could hear how melodious his voice was. Thank you Imran for making my day. When we meet, i wanna share more songs and ideas wif u ok.

To Lan and Ain, u guys are among the romantic couples for the time being. Congrats on ur first month. Love well my friends.

I'm still missin u Sab...

The one wif the winged visitor...

People keep asking me why i think too much. Its jus my brain, i think. Whenever i'm quiet and dreaming, my mind is workin full force. I can sumtimes come out wif lotta ideas, and it doesnt stop k. Tats the best part of my brain. The worst part is the tumor and not being able to execute my ideas.

I'm not the type of person who goes wif the flow. I dont know why, but i dont believe in tat shit. I always make plans. Maybe tat why i keep losing faith in myself everytime my plans dont work. But now i know how to control it, thanks to the help of my lovely friends. So dont tell me go wif the flow. I have made some crazy plans for myself, and i'm gonna do every single one of them, no one can change it. And if u wanna be part of my plans, be in it. If not, back off. I've got no time to waste.

Do dragons really exist? No right!

When i got back home last night, there was sumthin on my wall... It made me smile somehow.

Little wings... :)

The one wif the 15 mins show...

Pictures from the weekends...


Picture Theme No 2: What's Eating Gilbert Grape...


Feelin Hong Kong...


Killer Gerbil...


The show begins... I love tis pic, nice... Thanks!


FreAkyZ back in business...


Can i do tis again pls... I love the Waterfront...


Evolution of the crooked nose...


Celebrating... For no reason...


Hahaha! Nadra buruk k... :D

I had one of the best weekend. I had my performance on Friday. It was so fun k. When i was doin my soundcheck, tis chinese gal was lookin at me so much and she was listening to my lyrics k. Then later later when i was about to perform, she asked me, "U perform already?"... I said, "No, not yet, i'm goin up in a few minutes...". Then she said, "Wah, i tot i missed ur performance. I wanna see u do ur thing... hehe... Good luck!"... Then i was blushin, but it was kinda dark so no one could see tat, and i said, "Thank you!"... Tis kind of lil things make my day k. I felt so happy after tat.

But ofcourse i was nervous to perform. But its good u noe. Like Imran said, when we're nervous, we tend to make less mistakes than when we're confident. Oh well, i did 'Same Women Again' and the response was good. My 2nd song was jus plain hiphop... Haha! 3rd was 'Poppa's Got A New Wife' and tat was the shit. I mean almost everyone was listenin to my lyrics and the response was great. I managed to do the Filipino bit really well, and everyone started laughin. Haha! I could even see the chinese gal from the stage, and she was smilin thru-out my performance. Best k. I had fuckin fun. I wish i had more than 15 mins to perform. I really cant wait for my next gig. Those 'Loose Words' moments are back, and i hope it stays longer... If u noe wat i mean...

When the show was over, i met Rama at the side. Suddenly a women approached and gave me a compliment. I was so freakin happy. Rama started laughin, cos tat women appeared from nowhere. Hehe! As i was walkin among the crowd, an old couple gave me a two thumbs up and shaked my hand. No words could describe how i felt tat time. To me, if u get compliments from people who are not hiphop or doesnt even noe wats hiphop, its the best feelin man. K lah, enough of praisin myself. I'm not good actually, but i love wat i'm doin. Tats wat matters.

Thank you Imran, BS, Music For Good and friends.

I have 2 more shows coming up next week, and the week after next week. More updates soon.


Ali feelin cooking show...


Ah... If Lan can cook, so can you...


Tryin to catch a fly wif my chopstick...

Went to Seoul Garden today. I jus love the feelin of cookin my own food. But actually, everything is already prepared. Hehehe! I had my lunch, dinner, dessert, everything lah all there. Best k!

I dont know if i've influenced anyone lately. But sometimes i feel like i'm playin someone else wif different group of my friends. For example, I'm Imran, when i'm wif Ali, Lan and Dian. Cos most of the time, i do the talkin, plannin, and i'll always try my best to make things happen. When i'm wif my oldskool friends, i become the Salim of the group. I crack everyone up wif my jokes, antics and acting. But when i'm wif BS, i become Ali. I jus couldnt stop laughin. So has anybody become 'like me' wif their group of friends?

I feel like i have too many off days k. I'm not complainin, jus feel kinda wierd abit. And the days are passin by so fast nowadays. Its already mid-month. Things to look forward to: my pay, my shows, my holiday. Things not to look forward to: bills, bills, bills.

Last but not least...


Pls stop child abuse... Haha! Peace!

The one who got his fav hug...

So i have been switching shoes these days. Sumday i wear my white Nike Lebron, sumday i wear my Jack Purcell. Some people noticed the change, and some made funny comments bout it. Hehehe... Come on, i jus miss the old white sneaks k.

I wanted to write lotta stuff for the past few days, but its either i'm too busy or too sleepy. Niwae, went ice skating last week after the flea market at Kembangan. Here are some pics. More pics at Gallery.


Lan aka Boy Lover and Dian aka Tetek...


Ali aka Boy P***** Senstive and Fir aka Boy Cramp...


Ali first time on ice...


And there too, he falls on ice...


Feelin Power Ranger...


Feelin Disney On Ice...


I switched back to Nike Lebron...


Picture Theme No 1: War Of The World...

I was so fun ice-skating. The Mendaks used to do it alot during school days last time. We went there every Wednesday cos its college day, and the entrance fee is half-price. Or was it free? I couldnt remember. I lost my skills on the ice. Hehehe! Lan was feelin dare-devil. Dian feelin graceful. Ali and Fir was new to it, so it was kinda fun watchin them fall. Hehe... We should go again guys. Oh yah, we should cycling too. We should cycle from Pasir Ris to Changi to East Coast to Dunlop Street and then chill there. We can take pictures. Lotsa of them. How bout tat?


Ali and me on our cycling trip to Changi the other night. Best k!

Finally, the sheesha thingy is happenin at Prickly Bush. All the bottles are there, all the flavours i wanted have been bought. Ali did his first sheesha there. We're called The Fresh Princes Of Sheesha down there. Haha! Cool. So anybody, if u're readin tis, u're invited to come down to Prickly Bush. We are located at 66 Dunlop Street. Very near to Sim Lim Square. Nearest MRT station would be either Bugis or Little India. Jus a few minutes walk. Our normal sheesha is from $10 - $12, and it starts from 7 pm onwards. Prickly Bush also serves delicious finger food, and its a very nice place to chill at. Seriouly. So come down k. Seeya guys there!!!

Today is exactly one year since the first BS show at library @ esplanade. Time passes by so fast k. Congrats BS and good luck!


The beautiful set..


Willy and his latex glove...


Charlie sharing his chocolate...

I watched Charlie and The Chocolate Factory last Thursday. It was very very good. But i kinda expected more. Johnny Depp aka Willy Wonka was funny, and he had these kinda latex gloves on and it makes a squeakin sound. I liked it, and i dont know why. I love Freddie Highmore aka Charlie Bucket in tis movie. He's such a good actor. Look, i cried k, when he wanted to share his bar of chocolate, which was his bdae present, wif his family. Its so hard to find tat kinda people nowadays. I know he's acting, but like i said, he's a good actor. Dakota Fanning should watch out. The Oompa Loompa was so cute and the dance and song sequences were so 'kental'. Highlight would be the set for the whole movie. It was so freakin cool and beautiful k. The chocolate waterfall, the candy trees, the science lab and even the nut sorting area. Those squirrels were so damn cute. Tim Burton is such a creative bastard. Another highlight would be, Danny Elfman's music. He had tis new sound. Some sort of like a 'Zwingg!'. Love the music and songs. "Willy Wonka! Willy Wonka! And the chocolate factory...!!!"

I had a shocking but great day. I was so happy to see u after soooo long. U have no idea how much i miss u and how much i love u still. I didnt wanna let go of u, when we hugged. Thank you. Hope i'll get to see u again, soon. Take care and get well soon. Btw, you're beautiful. :)

I feel like eating half-roasted chicken wif rice from Al-Majlis. ~~~~~

The one who wants to live longer...

I had a beautiful day wif my beautiful friends. There's too many to write about tis week, i'll write tmr. Thank you beautiful people of tis beautiful world. Hehe. Feelin beautiful. Take my picture tonite pls...

Bloggin seems addictive again. But lately, i miss someone's blog. Salim, where's ur blog? Ali and I are so disappointed tat u closed it. Now no more SakiBakiPaki to look forward to.

My grandma past away last Friday. Eventhough she's not my fav grandma, she is still my grandma. She loves wrestling, and she always asked me for wrestling vcd. And when i say wrestling is fake, she would scold me. Hehe... She makes great tea btw. And i love her lemak lada padi. I'm gonna miss u nenek. May her soul rest in peace.

Saw Ahli Fikir's video, and i think it was freakin freakin freakin good k. Love it!

Exactly 3 months ago, i wish i died. But now, i wanna live longer. I dont know why.