The one who travelled in a London cab...

Its been long... Welcome back Mohamed Fazli...


Waiting and paying is the most irritating part...


Follow the instructions...

Some of u might find tis funny, but i jus love wearin tat x-ray gown. Its like everything (below there i mean) is so free and can breathe easily. Best k! Niwae my MRI scan went smoothly. But the most irritating part was waiting. I had to wait for a medical social worker to give me a memo and i had to wait for a doctor to give consent for me cos i'm not 21 yet. Jeez! Niwae the whole thing is over and done with. Jus gotta meet my doctor next month and i hope he gives me more good news. Insyallah.

So i met Sab on the same day. Was suppose to meet earlier but the hospital caused a delay. We went to Bugis, and Sab got herself a bag. I find Bugis totally damn boring, or maybe its bcos i'm not use to shop and buy stuff down there. I dont know, it feels different. Niwae i totally forget to take some pictures, cos i was so busy walkin around and talkin to her. U know, we've not really met for two months. I had alot of fun eventhough in the end we quarrelled bout our friends. Tat was freakin childish.

After tat i met Im to check out the new place i might be movin into. Its a damn huge place k, and the location is the best. Plus the people livin there are so nice. Its located at River Valley Rd, near Great World, Zouk, the whole freakin town and also Video Ezy. Hehe! I really feel like moving there, but there's so many 'wat ifs' in my mind. I need to finish the unfinished business at home. Tats my first priority.

Niwae yesterday, i love my work. I had to travel to three different Ezy stores. Well, i had to collect some headboards for my store, and these three stores are located at the west side of Singapore. So i had to take a cab, and as i was hailing to a Comfort, it jus went pass me. But then a London cab stopped. Weeeeeee! I was like in one of the coolest cab k. Everytime the cab stops at a traffic light, everyones starts lookin at me. I mean, the cab. Hehehe! Feelin k... The driver was so friendly, and i even had a chance to be his navigator, wif some help from Street Directory 2005. Mad props! Its was so fun, and i managed to get some pics. I wish i had someone to accompany me, cos it would be a bloody hell of fun. Niwae the driver gave me his card, and i would definately call him again sumday. I've got some crazy plans... Whahaha!


"Driver, can u pls turn up the air-con pls... Thank you"...

I think i'm spoilt eversince i worked at Fir-Iqbal. I usually take a cab to work tat time, and at tat time my pocket is always full of cash. So everywhere i go i was always in a cab. I even neglected my bike license, cos i felt like it wasnt tat important. Well, tis mornin i had to take a bus from Ali's place to my place, which was like 4 bus-stops away, and i feel like something different suddenly. I tooked a bus. I realised i save $3 by taking a bus, and i start thinkin bout how much i could have save up if i had taken bus everyday eversince i worked at railway. I could have saved alot of money.

Niwae Ali has came up wif a name for the band, The Funkus. Its not my band anymore, its more like a group of people who plays music for me, and they are gonna play a part in my EP later. My brain is finally workin at its best in music now. I'm lovin it.

To my heart...

Happy 21st Birthday my baby. May all ur wishes and dreams come true. Ur
birthday is special to me and u have always been special to me too. I hope
u'll have a great day today. Enjoy urself k. Love u loads and miss u
already!

I wont be workin full shift anymore next week. Woo hoo! I'm beginnin to love my job eventhough there are some people there who's really on the book. Get a life k. Infact get two. But the irritating part is i'm not getting my pay for tis month. I'm gonna be broke for a month. Nooooo!

I really gotta do sumthin to my room. Its becomin smaller. Or is it jus me?

The one wif the bdae surprise...

The crazy but beautiful people! Old Skool People!


The bdae boy...


Happy 21st Bdae!!!

I had my own surprises on Sunday. It was bcos all my lovely friends came to meet me. Ali waited for me at Kopitiam while i finish. Minutes later i saw Imran walkin pass by the store, and i told him to meet up wif Ali first. By the time i finish work, the old skools were already under my block, waitin for me. They had plan a surprise for An. So i walked wif Imran and Ali to the nearest bus-stop, ketawa besar for a while and then we parted. Btw, Imran shares the same birth date wif An. Happy 23rd Bdae Im!

Niwae the surprise at An's place went pretty well. If it was me, i would bloody hell cry out of joy. I mean, it was a freakin at 12midnight. Tat was fun. Well, An kinda like cry for a while. Touching k. The only missing thing was presents for An and also pizzas. I wanted to eat pizzas. Hahaha! After tat, i went to Ali's place to practice. Slept over at his place and for the first time his room is not dusty. Hehe!

I met wif my first ex galfren at Friendster. She's so freakin hot lah, but i could sense a lil minah in her. We were so called lovers in P5, and we lasted for a few months, until i tried to kiss her and she cried. Hehehe! I was freakin cheecky tat time, and i still am. *wink* Niwae, she left me a message saying she was lookin for me and how come i didnt contact her anymore. I was like, Hello! U're fiance is such an ass, beg me not to contact u, when i only smsed twice. Jeez! Then she replied tat she broke up wif him last year. Senang senang dorang tunang, ingat Polly Pocket kepe. But the point is she's like hinting sumthin. She even said she wants to meet up sumtime and catch up. Hmmmm... Oh well, she jus wants to meet, tat all. But she's hot like hell k. Arrgggh!

Today i'm off! Wooo hooo! I have an MRI scan today at SGH, 12 noon. Then i'm meetin Sab, after like two months of not meetin her. Then i'm meetin Imran to check out the new place i might be moving too. Then meetin the guys at Ali's crib. Now tats quite alot of people to meet.

Got to sleep now or else i'll be like freakin dead today!

The one wif the unapproved leave...

So i was late for work today, overslept, if u noe wat i mean. I looked at my phone and it was freakin off lah. I ran as fast as i could to the store and no one was there. Phew! Yeah, phew my ass. There were a few missed call at work's phone and it was the boss. I was in a bloody hot soup naked ok. So later my supervisor came and i straight away admit to her tat i was late. She jus said not to it again. Phew!

Few hours later she got a fax tat her leave was not approved. And all of the sudden she turned into my mother. She was in a very very bad mood. Then she started cursing Video Ezy like Tupac dissin Biggie, and it was scary ok. Customers even got scared. I freaked out. Jeez! Maybe she was having her period too. Wait, do butch get period??

I watched Musika Extravaganza. Phunkywan was wif Triple Noize. I dont know wat to say. I'm shocked. Niwae Taufik is so different. He doesnt do the Usher moves no more. I miss those moments. But Siti is still the best lah... I jus love her voice and the way she controls it. PCK totally burned the whole comedy skit. And how come he could make fun of the merlion but Rama cant. TV somemore. The Malaysian Idol was very good. Dayang *sumthin* was fabulous too. There was only one irritating singer, i dont remember her name. She was basically tryin so hard to be Beyonce's ass. U're not Beyonce k. Get a life k. Infact, get two...

I jus got a bad new from Aza the Marilyns jus now. He told me tat on the 18th May performance at Hideout, Seven Sundays will be performin there too. Ok, Seven Sundays are very good, but after the Eid compilation launch i dont really like them. When i was performin tat nite, a member from their band all drunk and shit was a rude standin infront of the stage cussing. I was damn pissed tat nite. Bless and Switch was there wif me. It was the worst gig of all time. So the tension is like crazy now. I have to either do an amazing performance wif my band or like Aza said, if i dont want to perform, its ok, i can always perform later later.

The only problem wif the band i'm having rite now is like Zaheed is a lil slow (or too fast) on the bass. And we still have no concept or should i say style of music. I wanted tis to be like a side project, but it seems more like a band thingy now. Its been great and easy workin alone. But i do want to give Ali a chance to perform.

To a special friend of mine; I really appreciate ur help alot. Seriously, i'm not ok at home. But hey, i wanna be okay, if u noe wat i mean. Things are pretty hard for me rite now, but i wont give up and break down. Tat i promise u. I do want to start living on my own but there are so many things i have to settle first. I love my siblings alot. I hope u understand. I will meet up wif ur friends next week. I will be around more often from now on so tat u wont have to ask silly questions to urself anymore. I always keep thinkin bout people who dont give a shit bout me rite? I'm sorry. I'm stupid. U've always been there when i needed help, and i always put u aside when i'm happy. Sorry for not being a good friend. Really sorry.

To another special friend, all i can say is go home. Runnin from problems are not gonna solve ur problems. Take watever job u can get for the time being. I'm sorry i cant help u much wif cash, but if u need a place to chill, u can always come down my place. Or we can chill at Ali's and jam. Pls, dont feelin 'lonely'... It will make matters worse.

To another special friend... Jeez!

My head is aching again and its like worst tis time. I hate it. I wish i could do sumthin bout it. Sometimes i keep thinkin bout crazy things tat could happen to me. And everytime i think bout it, the fear of not waking up to see all the people i love, starts playin in my mind. I hate tat feelin. I fuckin hate tat feelin.

I gonna have a very long day at work tmr. And its freakin Sunday. Sundays are suppose to be freakin family day dammit!

Amityville...

Have u ever wondered how come when someone's so angry, they can be the meanest mofos in the world. And they can freakin say anything they want to and expect u to be ok in a few days. I got it from both my parents, and i realised after almost 21 years of living, i'm not their son. Jus bcos of money. I'm not their son bcos one is so fuckin selfish and only thinks bout himself, and the other one only thinks bout how much she works for the freakin family. Jeez! Why should i bloody care bout ur shit, cos u started all tis shit, and i'm not gonna freakin clean it up. From now on, the two of them can do watever they like, cos i'm not their freakin son no more rite? And if my mom is gonna start her women's right thingy, go to hell wif tat and i hope she succeeds in sendin all men to jail.

I pity my siblings. I love them so much. I jus dont want them to go thru wat i went thru when i was young like them. I wanna get a new place to stay and start living on my own. But then i'll be like my freakin dad who is so irresponsible cos i'll be leaving behind my siblings to a crazy witch who starts cussing everytime she's broke. I have responsiblities at home, and i want to be a responsible person. I'm living in Amityville and its freakin scary ok.

Oh well, i wrote a new song. I like it. Its call 'The Same Women Again'. Its bout a guy who keeps fallin in love wif the same women who's gonna leave him in the end. Its like a reggae-hop music. And i must say tis, its one of the best songs i ever wrote. Music produced by Ali and Zaheed btw. Its a crazy track. Anyone interested in listenin to it, do come down and watch me and my new band's performance on 18th May and also 21st May. More details will be up soon.

I realised tat whenever i'm depress or angry, i get more ideas and i write more songs. But it would either turn out to be a sad song or dissin song. Happy thoughts! Happy thoughts! No, i dont wanna fly, i jus wanna write happy songs. Jeez!

Yesterday i went out wif the guys. Ali, Fir, Zaheed and Yasser. I feel out of place at first cos i dont really know like some people they were talkin about. Dont u freakin hate tat? Niwae it was fun, wif the sheesha, 2 hour omelette supper and also DVD movie. Zaheed fast forward everytime there is like scene of sexuality. I tot tat was pretty childish. Niwae we watched Jerry Maguire, its like my 7th time watchin it btw, and i cried again. Crying it not childish ok. It means, u do have a heart. Hehehe!

Oh yah, i got to see Yantee when i was walkin beside Fox. Weeeeee! And i got to meet Raudha at Zaheed's place! Weeeeee! If u noe wat i mean??!

I'll get my own show... sumday...

Like i said before, opportunities come all at one go. Rama called me jus now and he invited me to perform wif Triple Noize for a 'huge' event on Suria. On TV ok. My heart beat so fast and i was so freakin excited bout it. But, the bad news was, i had to be commited for 4 days straight. I cant do tat. I cant let my manager, Karen, down. I had tat urge of not coming to work again, but i wont do tat anymore. I jus had tis job. And i wanna keep it. Plus i love wat i'm doin at work. I dont want to let anymore people who really cares bout me down anymore. I'm tired. Niwae i'm rejecting Rama's offer. I really cant do it. And besides, i think i might have to take over Wady's place

I'm tired of making stupid mistakes, and giving people the wrong impression. I'm tired of running away from people. I'm tired of being unprofessional. I'm tired of being irresponsible. Eh penat lah!

I'm am going to get a mic soon, and i wll record. I wanna finish my EP before August, cos like Imran said, there will be alot of events in August and HipHopFest (organised by BS btw) is gonna take place ard tat time too. So its like the best time to release it. Cant wait to get my pay.

Niwae the lady who wanted to audition me for MTV VJ has jus called me. My audition is on tis Monday. Weeeee! Sometimes i feel like Joey from Friends alil bit. Its like i keep goin for auditions, if u noe wat i mean. Hehe! Maybe sumday i'll end up playin Al-Pacino's butt double too. But i dont have a butt. Jeez!

I'll earn my own show on tv sumday...

Decisions...

I had a good time last Sunday at the mini hiphopfest. My set sucked. But i enjoyed my self performin again. I feel bad for Apiz tho, who was featured by me. He had problems spitting his verse due to the cd. But its over now and its all good. Much thanks to Beats Society for the great event and also Imran for still having faith in me.

So i started work last two days on Tuesday. Work is good. I miss those busy times at railway actually. But at Video Ezy, it could be a lil busy at times. I think tis weekend i'm gonna find out if its really busy down there. But like i said, work is good. But payday is the best part. Woo hoo. And i could rent dvds for free. So i can watch the whole season of friends again and again. Yesterday i watched 'One Missed Call', which i rented btw, and it was scary shit ok. Jeez!

Today was my off day, and i spent the early part of it sleepin. Woke up at 11am, and cleaned my house, cos my mom was nagging like her mother, who is my grandmother btw. Then at 3pm, i called my dad to ask him how is he and also told him tat my mom is gonna sue him. He got scared and told me to meet him up to withdraw some of the savings we had to pay my mom. Tat was funny. Got back home, had a good dinner. And the rest is jus chillin in my small cozy room.

Sometimes i wonder why opportunities come all at one go. Last week, Aza from The Marilyns invited me to perform at a gig tis coming 21 May at Library Esplanade. I'm also gonna be featured in one of his songs. Cool eh. Its an honour k, these guys are good. Then today, Juliana from Screenbox called and she wanted me to come for an audition to be an MTV VJ for a malay music show. It could be or must be MTV Boom. "Selamat datang ke MTV Boom! Saya host anda, Mohamed Fazli"... Hehe! But Imran has always been the one who is giving me opportunities more than anyone ever did. I hope i wont let him down anymore.

I've made up my mind bout a few things and it will affect a few people. But fuck it, i'm doing things for myself from now on.

Verbal Constipation...

Sometimes women write beautiful songs. I cant stop listening to Alanis's You Oughta Know rite now. Its so, straight up, if u noe wat i mean. I wish all male artist could write songs like tis. U noe, like, dissing their freakin ex. Its helps alot. Angry, but soothing. And Jill Scott, oh my god, i love her freakin voice, and her songs are so 'beautifully human'. I jus love women.


Clarke Quay... Its been a long time...


G-Max... 101 things i should try before 30. Hmmm...

I went to Clarke Quay jus now, after my soundcheck at Pasir Ris. The last time i went there was like 5 months ago, eating at Hooters wif Rama and Fee. Tats fuckin long. Btw, the soundcheck was kinda bad. My cd skipped a few times like as if it was in Shera's car. I was blamed for tat. And Imran was in a bad mood, i have no idea why. Tmr i got to report at 4pm, and i'm not asleep yet. Jeez!

Ok, back to Clarke Quay. Rizal brought us to One Night Stand not knowing tat all male patrons must be 23 years and above to enter. So we ended up chillin outside a bar jus beside the G-max thingy. Gotta try tat btw, wif Ali ofcourse. Niwae the place was so freakin hot. I didnt sweat alot, but the rest did. So after a $60 drink, which i think is quite expensive, we went to Amara to check out tis Latin Club. It was damn cool. Love the moves. Everyone on the dance floor was dancing like it was a session. Most of the ladies down there was so sexy. I wanted to chill there, but the rest wanted to make a move. But i managed to grab some flyers before i go. Hehehe! After tat, everything was a total boredom. All of us ended up chillin at East Coast Park, of all freakin places. And there are so many mat and minahs there, i dont understand why. I had two tom yam instant noodle, a big bottle of lychee tea, then freestyled a malay song entitled 'Ayu Tetek Besar' and then headed back home wif the rest. The outing was freakin boring, but i love the salsa thingy. The chinese ladies there are so hot. Fancy skirts btw. Hehehe!

So tis is my new blog. A new version of me. I dont know why i love doing new blogs, and the funny thing is, i never seem to update them after a few posts. Well, yesterday i had a chat wif an old fren of mine, Wei wei, and we seem to have the same problem. Wei came out wif a new word in my life. 'Verbal constipation'. U see, sometimes i wanna write/blog, but i jus dont know how to put them in words. Plus my fuckin English is so fuckin bad i must say, so its kinda hard. But i'm happy doin wat i like. Yey!

Got a gig tmr. I'm like not so prepared for it. Jeez!

I still love my Sab. And i miss her bad. Sigh~ "what if God was one of us?!!"

I suddenly like black...

Its been weeks since i left Fir Iqbal. I've became jobless since tat. All i do is sit at home and watch dvd, eat junk food, or meet up wif the old skools. Actually, i've had too much of them in the past few weeks. But its not bad at all. I love them alot.

I went out last Saturday to meet Imran after a long time, and i was hoping to meet some of the Asone too. But only Fai was there, and he was totally upset cos he broke up wif his galfren. Niwae i felt awkward alil bit meeting my hiphop frens. I dont know why. Its like i have nothin new to tell them or maybe they totally forgot bout me cos i've been mising in action for quite some time. Shafii spoiled my fuckin day actually. But i jus wanna forget bout it. Its my fault. I should have listen to Imran. I should have perform at Esplanade. And i shouldnt have trusted Fir's word.

So now its like a mess i have to clean up. A few people suggested tat i should change my stage name. But to wat? Some suggested tat i should perform alot now. But how and for wat? Some even said tat i should start organizing my own gigs. I'm not at tat level yet. Maybe someday. I jus wanna be a normal performer from now on. Jus wanna learn more bout producing music. Jus wanna make good music. Tats all.

I met Yantee on Monday. She's still sweet. Oh, i had to be an extra for her sister's production thingy. I was fun, but tiring. On the same day too, i had to record a radio ad for tis Sunday's gig. So the ad is now on air on Perfect 10 and Ria, 5pm to 8pm, till tomorrow. And on Monday itself, i realised tat whenever i pronounce words tat has 's' in them, i would have alot of 's'. For example, if its 'Superman', i would sound like 'Ssssuperman'. Get it?

I got a job already, and the place and pay is good. I'm goin to start work next Tuesday. I cant wait to start. I've got bills to pay btw. Its all overdue. My phone is goin to be terminated soon. I hate it. Cant they wait for awhile.

I cant stop thinkin bout her. She's everywhere. I wish she knew how much i love her. :(

ps: Black is my new fav colour!